Tools vs ideas

 For the first time in my life meditation is becoming real! I am committed. For the longest time it was a once and again sort of thing. I loved the idea of it but now in this anxious storm of life I find myself in it's becoming a must. 

I suppose that is a gift in and of itself. 

For the first time in my life I am actually using real tools to address my anxiety. I am consciously stopping worry spirals and realizing they are not reality. 

It's amazing how anxiety can live in one's pores and approaches to life without it derailing it - just shaping it while you think it's just how things are. 

My son's experience and my experience of his experience has been life-changing. For me, definitely. I am not sure what he will take away from this journey.